In the book of Proverbs there is a verse which reads, “Hope deferred maketh the heart sick but when the desire cometh it is a tree of life.”
Every woman who desires children and finds out she is expecting one knows this feeling. I dare say many dads have felt it , too. It is a joy and a hope for the future that there will soon be a small one to hold in your arms.
I have been with child 6 times and 3 weeks ago was the first time my hope was deferred. The little one we were choosing names for had an “untimely birth”. It was nothing like I had imagined a miscarriage would be. I was only 9 weeks along. Due to complications I ended up at the nearest hospital where I had the opportunity to see my child after it came.
Soon after learning that there was a baby growing inside of me we had shared the news with my children. I reminded them that some babies God allows us to hold in our arms and others the LORD takes to Heaven before we are able to hold them. I had no idea what the future would hold.
The LORD Jesus has been so very good to me. He has given me a peace which passeth all understanding. He astounds me with the 5 precious gifts he has given my husband and I in the past 10 years. He has given me a wonderful husband and amazing parents and siblings. I have also been blessed with a breathtaking network of supportive friends. All of these blessings encourage my heart as I grieve the loss of my little one. For even though time heals all wounds there will always be tears for the one I was not able to hold in my arms.